I feel soo ugh .. like ugh

you don't understand how mad I am

i thought I was being a good friend.. and apparently i thought she was a good friend.. but apparently not

ooh how things aren't how they same

In the process I've lost sight of what really matters ... like my friends who will always be there for me no matter what

i'm  just so sick of this bulll shit of classes and hwo is better than who

and so much superficial bull shit i can't take it anymore

its just soooo nonsensical and freaking frustrating as hell

HEy so today Monica and I gave our presentation over Uruguay and Paraguay, we aced it!

It felt sooo good ah! one problem someitmes i like to get a little carried away and "dress for the occasion" so um.. because we were giving a presentation i thought it only natural to um want to dress for it .. right right??

ahah man i'm a loser... my outfit entailed wearing a business jacket and a mini skirt... in .. um.. 33 degree weather.. thats right folks.. below freezing.

As i walking down middle path .. i realized that the people around me were making the fundamental attributation error.

The fudamental attribution error occurs when you automatically judge  a situation based on its one occurrence... me wearing skirts was probably perceived as me being stupid.. but in reality i had a presentation taht day.

 I

Ah!

 I"m so sick of this, I"m so sick of work. I'm constantly writing papers, constantly reading, constantly on the go. Sometimes i just get burned out and I wanna do something fun. T-giving break is in 2 weeks, but I"m not going home. My whole fam is going to Michigan... cause I've neve spent T-giving w/ them. It Is Killing me.. i'm dying slowly. I want to see my friends... my family. I want real food. Geez.. when Tennis season starts back I don't know what I'm going to do.

On a happier note... I love Kenyon, I really do.THere is no place else i'd rather be. I found my friends, i found my bOyfriend. mUhaha.. hE's amazing... funny/ athletic/ smart

... tan..

Geez..

Last night we went to the DEeks Semi-formal and we were dancing and singing to Journey's dont stop believin, quite possibly the cutest thing ever.

Today Ben Attacked nate with a nerf gun

Its cold

I'm really pissed off... one of the 2 guys that i was semi-interested in turned out to be a complete assehole.. ha.. why does that not surprise me

why does my choice  never fail to falter.

Hm.. maybe i should just start expecting dissapointment... or maybe i should stop going for the funny attractive ones

 why am i so shallow?

These questions i have yet to answer

Hm... why do i procrastinate..

why do i insist on doing my work at the last minute

had i been doing my work... like i'm supposed to... during the day of course

i would be able to party at night...

but you know what... life doesnt work that way.. instead i end up fucking around with facebook and myspace and stay up all night doing homework.. which explains why i NEVEr get to go hang out with my friends at Night. I dont allow myself 2

SOo.. i heard some kenyon ghost stories yesterday.. kinda freaky....i'm not gonna lie

LATas _Eva-

 My nEw home  MY School.. IT's beautiful MY GORgEous BABY COUSIns Gabe and Bella

Hmm..

i never thought I'd say this , but i actually like Lubbock, I like Lubbock a lot.

I miss the people, they soo make the town.

I miss my friends.. they're funny as hell.... hardly anyone here is funny.

I miss Texas weather

 winter clothes are cute, but i don't feel like buying boots.

I 'm short

.. i feel shorter here... because there are no mexicans

The other day Meredith's parents took the tennis team out for dinner. A lady stopped me in the restroom and said "you have such a pretty tan, do you go to a tanning bed?"

ha that made me laugh. I just looked at her and said.. Well i'm Mexican and I used to live in Texas. AH!

I hate that used to.. but what am i supposed to say "i live in Texas during the summer, or i spend 3 months out of 12 there?? or how bout a plain i'm from Texas.. but currently live in OHio???

hmm anyways maybe i'm overanalyzing everything

I feel that since i've been here i've grown a lot. I've learned to appreciate life a lot more, and the people in my life that have made me who I am.

I love our tennis girls... but i miss my old tennis girls.

Geez... if i could go back i would cut out all of the bullshit drama... it is just not worth it.

Life is so short, why be mad at people?? Why hold grudges???

I"m happy.. at least i think i am.

I actually made student council here.. that was cool.

Hmm.. i kinda feel outta place though.. like i don't drink.. STILL... and i dont have a desire 2.

I miss the feeling of having butterflies... there aren't any boys here that i'm interested in. Sure some are cute.. actually a lot are... but there personalities are pretty dull.

I miss the boy who made me laugh.. where is he??

hmm...

anyways...

i dont have a social life anymore

If i'm not playing tennis, I"m doing homework

I live in the library

Jessica is flying up to see me on the 19th.. i'm excited... but i'm just worried that I'll have a lot of homework and i wont be able to hang out with her

I"m going to New York City on the 6th of OCt.

PiCtures babY!  My doubles partner..

shes my role model.. I love her soo much

SHopping in Easton with my tennis girls ANna and Molly aka MOllS!  SPorting the kenyon SHirt ! :)

SOme of my favs. Mike and brian  Me and Ben... (he's ridiculously smart and surprisingly fluent in spanish)

What's wrong with the above pic???

I should be wearing clothes like that in freakin September... brr... damn ohio weather